I am actually disabled it’s funny because I keep thinking I’m fine, how I just keep forgetting how I struggle with the odd task of staying within the lines of my limits My mind remembers more remembers how I was before and my plans are so ambitious pushing because doing is always delicious but then I go too far again trembling I fumble and am humbled again over and over like I’m losing my mind like the only way out is keep being unkind and the pushing pushes me over and down like the tears that slide from my eyes touching the edges of the frown that pulls down my lips down like my hips, down for the count and the grief piles high and I sink once again into this life where I am actually disabled #napowrimo19

Kyeli Smith @Kyeli