she knows the names of the stars “I feel unworthy of love” she whispers to me her golden chocolate eyes brimming with tears as I hold her hand and stare down her fear, hoping my strength will be sufficient to help chase away the demons long enough for her to breathe deeply just for a moment

she knows who’s who and who’s not and I can barely remember my own name most days she holds me together in ways I never knew I needed makes me laugh in ways I never knew I could makes me cry in ways I never knew I should and I sit with her, patient, as she learns to see her own soul

she knows the names of the stars an intimate knowing, a shy secret holding we are made of stardust, sprinkling down mixing with our molecules and yet somehow she still feels unlovable - this is how lost are we all, that we can share this intimate internal knowing and still feel the lack of love

so can we all know the names of the stars so can we all know the fragments of love and piece by majestic piece we can knit ourselves back together we must knit ourselves back together

she knows the names of the stars #napowrimo2019

Kyeli Smith @Kyeli